Thursday 15 December 2016

Look back on us with indulgence.


I had another dismal day at Hospital - a crazy bad result. On the other hand my bones seem to be recovering, which is really odd and shouldn't be happening.

So I'm having another dose of chemo tomorrow and yet another scan and we'll see where that gets me.

And then I got home and re-read this poem by Bertolt Brecht, one of my favourites, which kind of describes how I tried to live out my life.



To Those Born After


To the cities I came in a time of disorder
That was ruled by hunger.

I sheltered with the people in a time of uproar
And then I joined in their rebellion.

That's how I passed my time that was given to me on this Earth.

I ate my dinners between the battles,
I lay down to sleep among the murderers,
I didn't care too much for love
And for nature's beauties I had little patience.

That's how I passed my time that was given to me on this Earth.

The city streets all led to foul swamps in my time,
My speech betrayed me to the butchers.

I could do only little
But without me those that ruled could not sleep so easily: That's what I hoped.

That's how I passed my time that was given to me on this Earth.

Our forces were slight and small,

Our goal lay in the far distance
Clearly in our sights,
If for me myself beyond my reaching.

That's how I passed my time that was given to me on this Earth.

You who will come to the surface

From the flood that's overwhelmed us and drowned us all Must think,

when you speak of our weakness in times of darkness
that you've not had to face:

Days when we were used to changing countries
More often than shoes,
Through the war of the classes despairing
That there was only injustice and no outrage.

Even so we realised hatred of oppression still distorts the features,
Anger at injustice still makes voices raised and ugly.

Oh we, who wished to lay the foundations for peace and friendliness,
Could never be friendly ourselves.

And in the future when no longer
Do human beings still treat themselves as animals,
Look back on us with indulgence.



Neil Harris
(a don't stop till you drop production)
Home: helpmesortoutstpeters.blogspot.com
Contact me: neilwithpromisestokeep@gmail.com

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